I’m beginning to think I may be losing my mind.
I have lived here in Georgia for nearly 20 months, and not only haven’t I made a single new friend, I find myself losing touch with my old ones. I have been doing a great deal of reading and have been watching quite a few movies, but I find that I’m using Amazon (for movies) and Alibris (for books) to track down old movies and books that I haven’t seen or read for a long time.
Some of the books in particular have been wonderful to rediscover, like Robert Traver’s wonderful “Hornstein’s Boy,” the story of a campaign for the U.S. Senate that I read when I was in the ninth grade 48 years ago.
Others, not so much. Jacqueline Briskin’s “California Generation” is just as trashy as it was when I first read it decades ago.
I have plenty of new movies I still haven’t watched, but I have favorites — guilty pleasures, most of them — that I’ve viewed again and again.
My iPod is jammed full of music and audiobooks. I’ve listened to almost the entire Travis McGee series, and for some reason I have become fascinated with end-of-the-world type stories involving zombies.
I spend too much time on Facebook making snarky comments about Mitt Romney, Rush Limbaugh and the rest of the cast of characters in our national decline into greed and stupidity (of which I fit in quite well, thank you very much). I have told people I am disgusted enough with this country that if I were 20 years younger I would emigrate and if I were 40 years younger I would be a revolutionary. Of course, that’s bullshit. I was always too much of a coward to do more than just complain.
A few years ago, I was actually thinking of running for office. But if I didn’t do it in California, where my politics fit in quite well, I’m sure as hell not going to do it in Georgia.
This is the summer of my discontent, I suppose. A lot of my effort goes into taking care of my lovely wife, but there has to be more to me than just that.
It may be time to stop whining and start working. It isn’t as if I’m 80 years old.
I should still have quite a lot left.